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A. E. Stover
02 January 2020 @ 12:10 pm

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A. E. Stover
29 September 2016 @ 05:54 am
It's been about twenty days since my third year began. All is well, for now.

I still can't wrap my head around the fact that I'm teaching. That I'm a teacher. That I'm working a real job with real pay and real benefits. It's surreal to me, that I am this fortunate, especially when I can say definitvely that yes, I actually like my job.

On another note: maybe I'll up date more. Or maybe I won't. It depends. I haven't been on LJ since Tumblr, but I don't exactly want to leave LJ. Nostalgia, and the like, you know?
A. E. Stover
07 September 2015 @ 01:12 pm
School officially begins tomorrow. I have a few hours before the second academic year begins.

I'm not ready. I don't want it to start. I haven't been lazy enough, and I don't want to own up to my actions, to my students' actions, to anything, really. I don't want to deal with kids with shitty attitudes, I don't want to deal with teaching a class of kids who can't help but be distracting and be a bit of a shithead because they're at that age and they don't know how to control their misbehaviors.

I don't want to be a teacher yet. I want to be a kid.

I'll be turning 24 this year. To be honest, it's terrifying to think that I'm 24 years old but feel like I'm 14, and be responsible for the education of 150 kids. I'm in charge of teaching 3 different curriculums this year, because I'm the only social studies teacher, and I don't want to take on that responsibility just yet.

I don't want to fail anyone: not my kids, not my colleagues and administration, and not myself. But I don't have the luxury of preparing anymore; I wasted that time acting like a shitty kid and procrastinated, just like my own kids.

One day, I'll look back at this post and just laugh. Not becuase I've become wiser or more mature, but because I'll be so enamoured with the shitty chaos and discord my kids are bringing every day along with their small successes and great victories. One day, I'll laugh at my misery because my kids will have given me the strength and the courage to do so.

But until that day comes, I'll just sit here and pout, just like my shitty kids.
A. E. Stover
26 May 2015 @ 03:13 pm
I made my first PID home call. In Korean.

It wasn't the best thing in the world that I've had to do. I've been dreading to make the call, actually. Nobody wants to call a parent to tell their child is at risk of moving up to the next grade. I did the right thing; I told her what she needed to know about her kid (even if that meant ruining summer plans that she'd been planning so hard for) and forwarded the ELA teacher's email address. As the SS teacher, I have no idea what the kid's ELA grade is. So talking to the parent is pretty much useless unless I'm serving as the translator.
This is probably going to be the first of many calls. (in Korean).
I just have that feeling.
Holy fuck I don't know what I'm doing with my life anymore. I don't know if I can handle being a teacher, hahaaha somebody help me please.
A. E. Stover
I got a job.

I'll be teaching in New York City come this September. I'm the new social studies teacher for the 6th and 7th grades; two 6th grade classes & one 7th grade class, two of the three being ICT (Integrated Co-Teaching)/CTT (Collaborative Team-Teaching) classes, as well as a Media/Technology class. So, four classes a day, five days a week. And that's not including extended day programs, planning/development periods, observation/feedback sessions, and self-reflection time.

Busy can't even begin to describe what my life will be. I'm terrified at the sudden onslaught of responsibilities, but I'm also determined and excited to make changes in my students' lives.

I won't be blogging much on LJ anymore; maybe during the off-days to summarize what I've been doing. And I definitely don't think I'll be doing anything fandom-related for a while. But I do plan to do a weekly blog, focused primarily on my experience as a first-year teacher: from my job searching craze to the hectic hiring process, and of course my teaching methodologies, classroom management successes and disasters, end-of-the-year results, and the next steps. Tumblr will serve as the platform, just because it's easier to use on both a PC/laptop and phone app.

So, yeah.

Let's survive.
A. E. Stover
28 June 2014 @ 09:26 am
I went to Jamaica, Queens yesterday to return my cable boxes (thus ending my cable relationship with Time Warner) and my mom had to drive locally on the way back... We drove through Jamaica Avenue, where gentrification was at its worst and had squashed out so many of the mom & pop shops that the area used to be known for. And it made me so mad.Collapse )
A. E. Stover
22 May 2014 @ 10:52 pm
Pearson has agreed that edTPA (the big teaching certification exam I'm taking) is flawed. The exam may be suspended indefinitely, starting next year.


At least I didn't have to pay for that shit :V

(also I thought the exam was pretty well designed. and fun. (?????!!) oh well?)

(also I graduated from grad school so now I am big adult /o\)
04 April 2014 @ 06:37 am
Ah. It's just me.

Just me.

I'm still alive.
05 February 2014 @ 07:58 am
Despite the terrible weather in New York, public schools remain open. I didn't mind. I was looking forward to doing the follow-up lesson from yesterday, especially after I got such wonderful feedback from my CT and my field specialist.
Unfortunately, the neighborhood I live in seems to think that none of its residents ever leave the area.Collapse )