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19 May 2013 @ 09:54 pm
the road of uncertainty  
Graduated yesterday, and am free from collegiate duties for the rest of my life. It's weird — surreal, even. I still remember how anxious I was about starting college. It seems like it was just a few days ago, even now. I continue my graduate studies tomorrow (I have a summer session this year), and then I have a job July to August. I begin student teaching this Fall and Spring semester, and it's just... overwhelmingly new to me. I feel like I'm starting college all over again.

I don't think I'll have much time to write or update anything fandom related for a few years if I start working as a teacher after I graduate, or even the coming academic year. I don't even know if — if I'll even get hired. That's the frightening part — the uncertainly of my future. I can put as much preparation as I can for my future, but nothing's ever a guarantee. Being hired will always be one of those things that just happens; not because you plan for it. You can prepare yourself to be the best you can be for the interview, but you never really know until it happens.

Sometimes, though, it just never happens.
 
 
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Sonya: Caskettpandastacia on May 20th, 2013 02:54 am (UTC)
I think I posted a comment already, but it was probably sent as anonymous... Oops.
A. E. Stover: aestover on May 22nd, 2013 02:24 pm (UTC)
kekeke -- I was wondering who that was~ ;D

Everyone's got enough potential to fill up the universe, whether it be of good or bad (or both!), but it only matters if you've got a shot at showing it. But! I'm just being my negative self (it's how I cope with stress from the unknown -- not exactly a healthy way, but a way nonetheless! ...OTL).
Sonya: lady bug in a sea of greenpandastacia on May 30th, 2013 03:39 am (UTC)
I believe you have the power to do so - and you will bring all of the good and it will be fantastic and I am already SO PROUD. Keep chasing the future, Stover~ <3 It's all unknown and terrifying, but I believe in you. :)
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